The Genesis ( and I don't mean the band)

So this is my first attempt at a blog. I will begin by firstly, thanking my fellow blogging friends who have inspired me to do this. Without your courage to put your deepest thoughts and feelings out there, I don't think I would have. This is meant to be a cathartic outlet for the myriad of minutae running about my brain on a regular basis. My hope is for myself and other like-minded folks out there to feel understood, inspired and a general sense of connection on multiple levels. I am a married mom of two girls, ages 3 years and 19 months. I am also a psychotherapist and avid art lover. I love to travel, as well. Recently I have been daydreaming about having a vacation property or an RV. Both have their pro's and con's,but either would satisfy my desire to be transient. Researching this has been near to an obsession for me in the past few months. An obsession which my husband, Brian, does not partake of, herein lies the problem. I gather information, speak to realtors, crunch numbers, we've even viewed a property in Key West. But still haven't taken the crucial step of making a choice and starting to realize this dream. Brian and I have fundamental personality differences that can be an asset or a hinderance in situations such as these. He is practical, pragmatic, down to earth, likes to spend money in small amounts and literally paces in fear when letting go of his cash in increments larger than $100. I, in contrast, am a big thinker. I like to imagine possibilities, and will save money for years to make them a reality if I am really dedicated to it. I am not concerned as much with what others have done, or what is the most common (or safe) avenue to take. I believe making life something extraordinary involves taking some risks and living in a way that satisfies you, and no one else. My way of being scares the polo shirt off of Brian, and likewise his way of being bores me into a catatonic state. So what is the solution? Well, I still haven't quite figured that one out yet. But I must say, Brian is trying very hard to loosen up the reins and I am trying very hard to take pleasure in the small things. That is marriage for you, there is always a new compromise. Compromise is good, don't get me wrong, it certainly quells the waves, but sometimes I just selfishly want exactly what I want. No Compromises, no considering the cost, or what someone else will think, I just want to have a desire and fulfill it without question or deliberation.  Maybe that is one of those things we have to forfeit when saying, "I do". I can't say I have completely compromised my desire to be transient. I did book a trip to europe in August for my 3 year old daughter, Fiona and myself. Mybad.